2. earnest but tense desire; eagerness: He had a keen anxiety to succeed in his work.
3. Psychiatry. a state of apprehension and psychic tension occurring in some forms
of mental disorder.
I became very anti-social and worried all the time that I would have a panic attack out in public, so I sort of stopped going places. I didn’t want to be the panicky one, the scared one or the nervous & quiet one. I had to talk to somebody so I turned inward and online. I also learned that people from a distance couldn’t help me and neither could someone who was not a trained and licensed psychologist or psychiatrist.
I needed to learn how to cope, gain skills for everyday and try to relieve the panic and worry on top of my personal PTSD symptoms. I would worry so far in advance I started to make myself physically sick with every panic attack. So began the process that led me to get help I missed way too much college classes and I was failing. Not all in part to anxiety, I wasn’t a focused student unless I wanted to be- but getting so anxious about bombing a test would send me to the infirmary with the shakes and tears running down my face. I went to continuous talk therapy and went to two different one on one groups of cognitive behavioral therapy and a psychotherapy or “check in” with my psychiatrist.
I worked and worked at my anxiety plaguing me everyday. I talked through all my problems and where my worry comes from. I found it helped a lot to focus on certain techniques or changes to my lifestyle to balance out my mental health/anciety/depression etc. I practiced a lot of what my therapist called Mindfulness or being and becoming mindful of my feelings, thoughts and actions. It helped more everyday. Deep breathing exercises became like second nature. It was my “go to” technique to help me calm and visualize my problems, worries or issues- literally melting away.
I also did things like focusing on the here and now versus the future and past- hard to do (yes) but not impossible. Taking each step a day at a time really helps as much as you can, live in the now and that should ease your anxiety. And if you ever need a friend, a shoulder to cry on or someone to vent with- know I’m always here.
Now I manage my anxiety much easier by talking to friends and family often. I was on medication for anxiety which helped ease and make my anxiety attacks disappear. I haven’t had problems with them in a few years, although I still worry and have everyday anxiety when I get stressed. I take care of myself and treat myself often when I’m having a hard time. Something as easy as a hot bath, a glass of wine (or cocktail), or a favorite tv show or spending time with friends or out shopping!
Do what makes you happy.